I don't TRY to be tough...

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-12-11T13:36:00

2006-12-11T17:36:09Z

I'm officially jobless. my last day at It's A Grind was yesterday. I'm going through a lot of emotional issues right now. I feel very unsecure. I don't really know how to handle not having a job. I should just relax and enjoy a little bit of time off but I keep having panic attacks about where i'm going to work. I know it shouldn't be hard for me to find a job but I am slowly losing my mind.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-11-15T16:29:00

2006-11-15T20:29:37Z

The bout went good. No serious injuries thank god. I'm a little disapointed in myself. I know I could have done better, but now I know what to expect for next time. I was so nervous I just could not get my body to stop shaking, it definetly impared my skating abilities. But I am excited for the next one!!

January 21st is our first REAL bout. You guys should try and come check it out!! You'll like it I swear. Titties and roller skates. And of course girls falling down alll over the place.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-11-11T22:43:00

2006-11-12T02:43:46Z

Tomorrow is the big daaay!! I'm so freaking nervous. I'm gonna try my hardest not to let those big bitches take me out!!

Wish me luckk!!

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-10-25T18:57:00

2006-10-25T23:04:37Z

What can I say my life is a bore. I must say I don't feel as fun as I once was. I work, I skate, and I hang out with my boyfriend, who by the way is the best thing I have found in a long time. I'm lucky to have someone like him in my life. We get along so well. I honestly never thought I would beable to find someone that I get along with as well as me and him do. I feels really nice. I still have my crazy moments. But i'm sure he adores me for them. I just like to keep people on their toes.

On another note. Our first exhibition bout for roller derby is on november 12 at florida wheels in bradenton!! I am sooo excited. I hope i'm ready for it. I've been practicing for awhile but 6 months isn't that much time for someone who has never really skated in their whole life. If you can you should try and come out and support our teams!! Let's hope I don't get crushed too bad.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-09-26T20:53:00

2006-08-27T00:49:09Z

there's nothing like nice warm beer.

Queen bee.

2006-08-23T22:20:18Z

Oh yeah, I got this for my birthday too.

It was a good birthday.

2006-08-23T19:02:59Z

My brother got me some badass pumas and some awesome aveda hair product. Matt bought me an ipod. And my boss Carla bought me a couch purse. The best presents by far. Not that presents are everything. On top of the presents the birthday was good all around. Thank you guys!

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-09-21T13:54:00

2006-08-21T17:57:44Z

1 day idiots.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-09-18T01:12:00

2006-08-18T05:13:06Z

4 and a half days fuckers.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-09-13T20:35:00

2006-08-14T00:35:21Z

My birthday is in 9 days!! I'm excited. My birth control is now kind of leveling out. I haven't been as moody as I was the past 2 weeks. Thank god, I really think I was starting to freak people out. Hopefully I will be getting my lisence and a car within the next month. It will be such a releif not feeling like I have to depend on other people to get my little booty around. The new season of weeds starts on the 14th hellll yeah. If you have showtime you should check that shit out. I'm gonna get a bumble bee tattooed behind my ear for my birthday!! And i'm gonn aget my septum peirced. Yes it's gonna be a fun filled day of pain and excitment!!

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-09-02T15:57:00

2006-08-02T19:57:15Z

My brain has been an emotional roller coaster for the past 2 weeks. I fucking hate periods. And I hate that people don't make it any easier on me. For once could I just be ok? I don't know why people have to interfer with my life. I'm sorry i'm such an embarassment. You won't have to worry about me anymore. You hurt my feelings more than you could know. You really won't ever have to worry about me again. Your dead to me. I can't handle your bull shit anymore. If you want to come around, then come around and be positive about my life decisions. If you ask me I turned out pretty damn good considering the circumstances.

10 more hours of backround and it will finally be finished!

2006-07-28T03:01:06Z

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-21T21:24:00

2006-07-22T01:25:04Z

Last night was intense. I am so glad I got to see my baby girl! It made me wild and soooo excited!! I can't wait to go to tally and hang out with you Rebecca!! Imiagine last night but me 10 times more insane!!

DAMN IT!

2006-07-20T16:21:43Z

The shittiest thing ever is when you pour yourself a bowl of cereal and you have no fucking milk.

It's amazing.....

2006-07-19T23:21:25Z

I don't ever remember feeling this way before.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-16T02:54:00

2006-07-16T06:57:28Z

exaggeration. you should give it up.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-15T12:03:00

2006-07-15T16:05:49Z

I love falling asleep next to him.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-14T12:23:00

2006-07-14T16:28:19Z

I hate going to work everyday. I wouldn't mind it so much I guess if I could atleast have 2 days off a week. I wish I didn't have to provide myself with things, I would not be working this much. But it's just life. We all have to grow up sooner or later.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-13T11:36:00

2006-07-13T15:38:30Z

Complete happiness.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-10T02:54:00

2006-07-10T06:57:24Z

omg@@ itwad admitted@@ fianlly i fucikinbg. I fuuckingf HEARD IT! it felt so good to hear/. fuucka alld of you.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-08-09T03:49:00

2006-07-09T07:52:26Z

My brain is so boggled. I want this to be right because I want it so bad, but yet there are just so many doubts. I hope this turns out the way it's supposed to.

I forgot to post this the other day!

2006-06-29T06:25:33Z

Me and the roller derby girls were on the front page of saturdays newspaper!!!

How fucking exciting is that?!

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-07-27T03:57:00

2006-06-27T08:00:58Z

I don't get how friends can be so fucking shitty. I will put my neck on the line for someone I call my friend any day of the week any fucking time.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-07-26T21:06:00

2006-06-27T01:10:11Z

I am one of those people that can go awhile being happy feeling no sadness what so ever and then I just get upset out of nowhere just for the sake of being sad. I guess my brain is just not content with being happy all the time. I have no reason to be sad right now. But I am.

xpinkmurderx @ 2006-07-26T00:09:00

2006-06-26T04:12:08Z

I worry too much.